I don’t use the word hate very often. I don’t hate people, or any foods that I can think of at the moment (liver and onions come pretty close however). While there are a few things I really don’t like to do, there aren’t many that I truly hate to do. So I hesitated when I thought about telling you all that I HATE needing to be pulled up the road by the tractor because it is too muddy to drive the pickup out on its own.
Before I put the word hate into this post, I decided to look up the definition in my 1967 American College Dictionary to make sure that I really meant it. It said:
hate 1. to regard with a strong or passionate dislike; detest 2. to dislike; be unwilling: ie I hate to do it
Guess I did have it right. Here is my story.
Last weekend we needed to take our 28 foot flat bed trailer with a heavy load on it to the ranch. This is typically not a problem. We leave early enough in the morning to arrive while the temperatures are freezing and the road is still solid. If it unthaws during the day, we are prepared to spend the night until the road freezes again, or to leave late enough so we can drive right out. This was our plan for that Saturday.
Indeed, we were able to drive right down the road in the morning. After we unpacked, I worked in the house while my husband got the trailer unloaded. Our plan was to spend the rest of the day accomplishing small tasks, then to decide whether to drive home late that evening or early in the morning. That is until we noticed a low tire on the right rear of the pickup after lunch. To resolve the problem, we hooked our compressor on and tried to blow it up, but it would not take air. While not an emergency, it was obvious that the tire wouldn’t hold over night or even until that evening. We would need to pack up and head to town to have it repaired.
We were ready to go in short order. My husband, an excellent and experienced driver who has gotten us out of some pretty impossible situations at times, jumped behind the wheel and headed up the hill. Today, however, it wasn’t meant to be. The pickup made it just halfway, then refused to go any further. We were going to need some help from a heavy chain and the tractor. Yet surprisingly, this time I found I didn’t hate it so much.
I have been behind the wheel of the pickup (silently praying like crazy and trying not to do any damage) enough times before that it wasn’t as scary as it used be. I didn’t wipe out any gates with the trailer, or slide off the road, (I have slid over the side before), or break the chain or the pickup frame. My husband and I were kind to one another, (you know what they say about building a house or towing a rig with your spouse), and we made it to the top with relative ease. The tire store was still open when we got there, and they fixed our flat free of charge. We even made it home before it got too late.
I cannot end this post the way I started it. Although it isn’t my favorite thing to do, I will no longer say that I HATE to be towed by the tractor. Because of God’s faithfulness in the past, it is not as scary as it used to be. Because I know what it is like to drive right in, I am thankful when it happens. Because I have had to be towed out, I am more confident when it does not. Yes, I have actually slid off the road before, but I now know I will be alright no matter the circumstances.
I don’t always understand why sometimes the road is frozen, and other times it is greasy mud. I do know that The Lord is with us in either case. He is with us when we can drive right to where we are going. He is also with us when we need to be towed out with a tractor and a chain. Yes, He is even with us when we slide off the edge of the road, ready and able to help pull us back on.
The Lord is always working, teaching us to trust. He is there showing us how to do those things that we “hate” to do because they are scary. He is busy building our confidence in ourselves, and most importantly in Him.
Isaiah 41:10 Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.
Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.